The Winter is Past
Today, I got a much needed reminder of who I am in Jesus. It wasn’t easy to hear, because I have been through some tough things in my life and have always walked on the side of victory. Yet, struggles of the past four years have layered hurts on top of never fully healed wounds, and I have, little by little, yielded my authority as a child of God to places that I would never have imagined a few years ago.
Where is that woman of God who buried her first husband and never lost faith? Where is the warrior who danced before the Lord with abandon, placing all trust and faith that HE would be all she needed? Where is the prophetic voice that arose from time to time, bringing words of wisdom to drug addicts who desperately needed to know there was HOPE for them on the other side of THEIR struggles?
She became buried under a mound of hurt and betrayal that has never quite healed. She allowed the whispers of the enemy to infiltrate her soul and cause her to believe that she was not worthy, and not gifted enough, to continue to serve the Kingdom of heaven. She walled up her heart and guarded her emotions, refusing to allow anyone in for fear of further hurts that would attack her.
But thanks be to God, who gives us (me) the victory–and thanks to those HE sends to push us (me) out of our (my) pity party. Earlier in the week my good friend Deanna texted me to say her dad and mom wanted to come see me. Her dad is a man of few words, but when he speaks, it pays to listen, for he’s heard from God. It was a divine appointment…and after three hours conversation with the three of them, where I had to face myself and admit how my faith has been shaken, it’s like a fresh breeze is sweeping over me again.
It’s been a long, long winter– four years TOO long. Enough is enough and spring is around the corner. I want to feel again, to stand in the greatest faith ever that God is going to do something even mightier in me that what I’ve experienced to date. It’s time. I want to be ready, to walk in authority, to know that I am a daughter of the King of kings once again.
Maybe YOU need a reminder, too. I know I can’t be the only one that has felt this way–FEELS this way. So, with spring physically just around the corner, here’s a 4 x 6 calendar you can download and print to help boost your spiritual confidence during the coming month. The winter IS past, and the time of singing is here.
